I gave this headline because I still can’t recover from Taylor’s new album and still can’t believe that I’ll see her soon omg 😭 I’m only living for that moment.
Summer started, yey. My sophomore year was busy, with many failures and little success. I just accepted that bad things happen in life all the time, I learn new things, then another new bad thing happens. It’s a learning cycle that never ends. Even today, I left my bag on the grass to run for 45 min, and someone took it with my ID cards, key, and earbuds. Okay, another lesson. But surprisingly I’m not angry at all. I just accept it, life goes on.
Almost all my friends have internships at good companies now (I’m happy for them ofc). I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I can even imagine myself going to Mongolia after graduation. Maybe it’s my path? If I study master's, I need a good GPA to get a scholarship, but I stopped trying to get 5 on every subject. I don’t want to waste my time studying for subjects I don’t like. I want to do something meaningful, which sparks my passion and keeps me in the flow. I’m not even in a hurry to find what I like, everyone has one’s own time.
As GDSC and OOP are finished, I’m not tired at all. I’m planning to be productive this summer, doing online courses, leetcode (even though I hate it), side projects, and even starting my thesis. I was never productive in summer lol but I really have to now 🥲
About my health, I’m feeling good. I accepted that diets don’t work, so I just do workouts, eat healthy, and embrace myself even though I’m not losing any weight. I don’t correlate health and weight anymore. I try to be active as much as I can, doing yoga and strength training, running, cycling, swimming, and walking. Lately, I started a habit of running. One day I want to run a marathon:) My back pain becomes worse and worse after each semester and I have to “heal” it during the breaks. I can’t imagine how my back will be if I sit at an office every day 😒. At least I will have the salary to go to physiotherapy, I hope.
How’s dating life? The most interesting topic of all time 😂. I’m learning to let people go. If someone doesn’t treat and respect me the way I want, I say no politely. Prioritizing my mental health it is. Now I know what I want — just a cute relationship. Two people having a good time, caring about each other, laughing, talking about everything, exploring, understanding, and trusting — without any big promises, just enjoying the moment.
This summer is gonna be exciting with the Olympics, Euro cup, Taylor Swift’s concert, and trips to Warsaw and probably to Moldova 😇. Now I’m done with exams and I need to focus on my career and health:)
2024.06.05 not sad nana after losing a bag
