Can’t hold it back anymore~ let it go~. Hope you remember this song from Frozen:)
I just had something bad with a girl who was my best friend. It takes so much time to recognize people, I always say this and try to learn from my mistakes, but still, even my friend can fuck up. I was angry because she told someone about my secret, I found out after many months. She didn’t even remember how and when she talked about it, for sure she did. When I asked her she was talking about other things, blaming me for generalizing that she can’t keep secrets. She even shouted at me about other stuff, but hey, I was the angry one. She didn’t even apologize. You know I don’t fight with people, I always forgive and forget. I don’t wanna make a drama here, blocking her or talking shit about her in uni or whatever. I’m just too kind and soft, I didn’t say a single curse to her. But this is who I am, guys and friends make trouble in my life and I don’t do anything bad to them after all. I can’t stand some “adults” can be that stupid and always justify themselves when the fault is on them. Damn, I’m so disappointed.
Losing toxic people is actually a win. I don’t care that we won’t hang out as before and I’ll lose connection with some people that I met through her. It’s much better to surround myself with few trusted people and be comfortable. I don’t have to be a social butterfly and attend every party. Who wins after all? Caring about my mental health is more important than being close to shitty people.
I deactivated my Instagram again. I don’t want to show my best self and make the wrong impression on people that I’m only having fun and traveling. I don’t want to see what everyone is doing either. I might also lose connection to some people, but it’s not worth engaging with them. Let toxic people and things go and live on. Let it go.
2024.9.11 Nanasan after a long day.
