Many things happened since I wrote my last “diary”. I hope that writing something will help me to consider what is happening and find what to do next. So let’s dive into Nana’s mind.
Firstly, I got higher scores than I expected in the EYESH and started studying at the National University of Mongolia. All the lectures are online so I can not experience university life. I go to my school 3 times a week. The great sides of NUM are the library, teachers (I chose good teachers, fortunately), and the location.
I wrote about how intensely I was preparing for the IELTS in my last diary. I got 6.5, which was lower than I thought. If I had been a little lucky, I would have gotten 7. My sister and mom encouraged me to take the test again and I failed for the second time. I am very disappointed that I wasted money on a preposterous thing and can not get a sufficient score after I have prepared a lot. The main point is that my English skills were improved while I was preparing for IELTS. I used to complete one mock test every day and I found the discipline to sit and study by myself for a long time. Failing is the inevitable thing in the way to achieve.
It is the time which I have been waiting — time to apply for the universities. I am planning to send my documents to 4 Japanese universities and some American ones. The most important thing I have to do is the essay. I must write different essays for each university. I am struggling to prioritize what exactly to do right now. I may take Duolingo English Test. I also do not know that I have to take SAT or not. Oh, I should translate the recommendation letters and compile documents. Some homework is waiting for me :(
I am not discouraged or stressed at all. It is very interesting and adventurous to do these tasks and see my capability. Furthermore, my desire to study abroad has increased. I would regret if I did not do this, I would not regret if I have done my best. I am gonna learn many things while writing the essays. I hope to read this article after I received the acceptance mail.
Turning to my mental health, I am still being lonely. I am accustomed to being lonely. It does not matter that people are hanging out or having a relationship with each other. But actually, I would rather be alone. It may be one of the reasons I want to study in a foreign country.
